Then they wrap him up and give him to you. You put him up to your breast, and he feels safe again. He feels as close to being inside you again as he possibly can.
"What happened...everything was perfect a minute ago..." They take him into a room, undress him, take off his diaper and strap him to a board. The board is cold, and it hurts him to be stretched out like that. He can't move his arms or legs, and that's scary. Someone puts a thin sheet over him, and it's so confusing.
"Where's my momma? Her voice makes me feel so safe, and her touch calms me..."
He can hear other voices, but can't recognize his mother's in the group, and he see fuzzy things moving around above him. He's not sure what they are, but the voices are coming from those moving shapes. He cries for you, but no one comes to save him...in fact his cries are completely ignored until someone sticks a sweet pacifier in his mouth. For a moment he stops crying, not sure what it is in his mouth, but the sweetness makes him forget what's going on around him for a second. He sucks, and is soothed by that.
When they bring him back to you, his face is red, but his tears are dried. When he looks at you, he cries again.
He squeezes his eyes shut as hard as he can and thinks,
"Where were you? Why didn't you come and save me?"
There is no Health Organization in the world that recommends routine infant circumcision.
"Why did you let them do this to me? You said I was perfect, momma... You said I was perfect when I was born, just the way I was...and you were right! I didn't need to live through this, and I will always carry a memory in my brain of crying for you and you not coming...the most horrible pain I'll ever experience, and you not saving me. And now when they bring me back to you and I look at you and cry, it's because my heart is broken."
From the emotional and physical trauma he's lived through, he sleeps. He's trying to heal his body, and find security in the only way he can now. His trust in you was broken. He learned a harsh lesson about life and love, and he was only just tiny. He learned that only sleep will make it all go away, and that even when someone is supposed to protect you, sometimes they don't. Sometimes all the love in the world isn't enough to make them ignore generations of misinformation to do what their heart tells them to do...keep their baby whole, as nature and God intended.